Saw my counsellor this week and things were going from bad to worse. Was still struggling through with the safeguarding module, and the most recent bit was about recognising signs of abuse... Well, chaos seemed close to closing in... Flashbacks and anxiety had made a massive comeback, and I was even thinking I was seeing him while I was driving around.

During my counselling session, my counsellor suggested that I contact college, let them know about what's going on and the court case, and see if I could put the rest of the module off until after the court case,

I saw my tutor yesterday and gave her the barest details of what's going on. She's agreed I can do any safeguarding modules after the court case, so at least then I can talk through the feelings and memories it brings up. For now, I'm working through a child development module, which will take up the next three weeks.

As for the court case, she's recommended I take an official 'break in learning' for two months from the start of February. That basically pauses my course, so I don't lose any time. I'll then be able to come back to studying after the Easter holidays. I think that's a good idea. They have no problem with me continuing to work but it would me no pressure to study while I'm sorting my head out!

Things are calming a bit now. I slept for 14 hours last night... Think I needed to catch up with loads of sleep after a couple of rough weeks.

I'm booked to see my counsellor again in January.