Really struggling at the moment.  Hardly sleeping.  Counselling is so hard.  It feels like we've covered such a lot in such a short space of time.  It's great as we've really connected, but the bumpy ride is really kicking my butt!  Sleep is really suffering... I can't get to sleep before 3am or so, and then flashbacks and nightmares are rampant. They're there during the day too. I'm having issues staying present sometimes and I don't like it.  

We've worked out that the two flashbacks that are plaguing me are two important ones... the first time he raped me, and the last time he tried to abuse me - which was when I shouted at him and wouldn't let him touch me.