Counselling has been switched to a different day to try and ease the time it takes me to get home - before, coming home from Croydon at 4pm was taking me till 5.30pm some days!  So today, we're trying Erith at 2pm to see if that's better.  Hopefully, I'll make the school run with 10 mins to spare!!

Last night was odd, and I was feeling chaotic and very anxious.  I couldn't even describe the feeling as they were too fast, and too intense.  Holly talked me through some breathing exercises which helped calm me a little, but I had to drink a herbal sleepytime tea to get some sleep.  Si says I was disturbed a lot in the night, and he spent a lot of time soothing me back to sleep, but I don't remember.  I don't feel like I slept really, and of course, he's shattered too.

I've been thinking, and out of all my littles, I like it when Belle's around as she's fun, and innocent, and loves playing with the kids - which I can do at work.  That makes her feel happy, which leaves me happy too.  It's not that I don't like the others, it's just that some of them are harder to work with, or leave me feeling sad and/or blue.