Well...  my counsellor thinks we're dealing with another 'insider' - I can't call them a 'little' as they feel too aggressive and angry and well, they're not young.  Basically, they're trying to make me feel guilty for speaking out and stopping the abuse, for talking out despite promising him I'd never speak about it again, and for breaking my promises and talking to the police which put him in jail.  They're flooding me with sad, desperate and guilty feelings and are sending me lots of images of a sad, lonely man being beaten up in jail, or sat lonely and upset in his cell.  It's really hard.

She's said for now to acknowledge these feelings, and to try to let this 'insider' know I've taken their feelings on board even though the adult me doesn't agree with them. 

I'm hoping it'll calm down some soon.