I found this today on another blog, and think it's particularly appropriate for how I'm feeling at the moment.  I'm being so hard on myself for not "being over it" and "dwelling on the past".  I'm trying so hard to remember what my counsellor's said about this being a journey, and that it's not over yet.

I think I was hoping that, after the court case, everything would be put to bed.  I thought it would be a few sessions of counselling to put things finally to rest, and that would be it.  It seems though, that the more counselling I have, the more issues are being brought up to deal with.  I worry that I'm running out of time with Emily.  I have less that a year with her left, and what if that's not enough time??  I'm stressing already that everything won't be dealt with, and I'm worried that'll stop me bringing things up to be dealt with at all.