So, triggered tonight by a post of Facebook by a stupid quiz that can "guess the age you lost your virginity".  My first thought?  I wish I'd been able to choose for myself... mine was stolen before I even realised how precious it was.

For this one, my 13 year old wants old... well, Clairabelle does too, but all I think she wants to say it is that it hurt.  Titch is confused, maybe I'll just let her take over.

I don't understand. I don't know what to do. I told and everyone got upset. When I saw the film at school, it said that we shouldn't do that stuff till we're older, but grandad's already done most of it. It said we shouldn't let people touch our private parts as it's wrong, and bad. Now I feel bad.  I don't want people to think I'm bad.  I didn't mean it.  It was nice sometimes and sometimes it hurt but I didn't want to make him sad.  Now he's sad.  Now I'm sad.  Some of the girls at school talk about boys and sex, but don't they know it burns?  Don't they know it hurts inside?   I can't tell them though.  I said I wouldn't. I said I'd be quiet so he doesn't go to prison.  Prison is a bad place for bad people, and he's not a bad man. He loves me.

We're cross with big for talking.  We're cross with big for making him go to the bad place.  He's not safe now. We don't know why she talked.  She promised. She said she'd be quiet so it would be ok but it's not. Nothin is ok now.  Everything is wrong. We r hurting and he is hurting too.  Maybe he's mad with us.  We didn't want to make him cross.  We're special.  He told us that.  Why did she lie?  Lying is bad.  Everyone will be sad now too.  Maybe they get cross again.  We like what he did.  I like the cuddles and the soft strokes.  I like the warm bed.  He says sorry when he hurts us.  We r sad we don't see him now.

Ok, a bit fuzzy, but it's weird - it's like I'm aware of what they're saying, but have no desire to take over.  I don't think Titch was the only one there - I suspect the second bit was Clairabelle.  I don't know why she calls me 'big' though... Will have to ask Emily about it.